Its not that I even want to die anymore, I’ve just accepted the fact that it’s going to happen in the next couple of years max. I’m okay with this, I simply do not take interest in being here, there’s nothing here I’m meant for and my chest hurts too much to ignore. I’m not going to apologize for that anymore.

Fed one of the most respectable fun party ass friends gear tonight and now I’m helping her throw up, never felt so guilty in my life. Although she did cockblock me and I have spent all night helping her walk and shit so I guess it’s okay.